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Lewdness kills your life

Update: 11/05/2015
I was an accountant at a company in Tu Xuyen province. If the past incident was not happened, my life would be in peace and contentment and happy as many people and not as bad as of now.
 

Lewdness kills your life

 

One day in Jan 2001, some colleagues and I were on a\r\nbusiness trip in Thanh Do. I stayed at a hotel and a prostitute called and\r\nasked me for sex. I could not curb my lust and as a result, I was regretful for\r\nthe rest of my life.

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After that night, just waking up, I felt uncomfortable at\r\nthe lower body. I went to a pharmacy and bought some inflamation drugs to take.\r\nA few days after, I feel normal, no symptom any more. My life became as usual\r\nand I gradually forgot the past.

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One day, a gracious people introduced me to a girl. Her\r\nhuman dignity was very good, her work was stable, and we were pleased with each\r\nother and congenial to each other. After a few months of inquiry, her parents\r\nrequested us to get married at the next Spring. At that time, I again felt\r\nuncomfortable at my lower body. I thought I must go to the hospital for general\r\nhealth check. The result was shown that I got Chlamydia and Gonorrhoea. This\r\nwas completely unexpected news to me. That was true and I decided to treat my\r\ndisease strictly.

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At the first time, the doctors told me that this kind of\r\nsexual disease can be fully eradicated if I strictly obey the therapy. They\r\nalso advised me not to worry. I strictly obeyed the therapy for a long time but\r\nmy problem could not be solved. I, in turn, went to many doctors and they said\r\nthat this disease can be treated easily if it was detected early, but with me\r\nthe disease was detected after nearly a half of year after infection and I\r\nmissed the chance for better treatment, and my disease to be chronic. More than\r\nthat, it leaded to prostate gland and the treatment became difficult. They gave\r\nme a lot of drugs and asked me to take during 3 months to get the better\r\nresult.

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I hoped that I will be recovered again so I strictly obeyed\r\nthe therapy as advised by the doctors. I had used the therapy more than a year\r\nto Sep 2003, but my disease could not be treated and I decided to stop the\r\ntherapy because I had spent all my money. No one knew why I became a very poor\r\nman. I had no money in my pocket, live a tough life day by day. More than that,\r\nI could not reveal that I had spent my money for what. I was truly repressed.

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This disease affected to my work, my life and my studies\r\nvery much, it changed my destiny and all my life. Among that, the most serious\r\nthing was it affected to my marriage.

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In Dec 2003, a big state-owned company in my town organized\r\na recruitment examination for 4 new employees. I attended that examination and\r\nI headed the list of successful candidates in the writing examination, I also\r\npassed the oral examination and the political examination. But I refuse for the\r\ncompany health check; fortunately my disease was not revealed. The worse was\r\nthat my company started the process of the human resourceinnovation. I\r\nheard that I usually went to the office late and to be off work without reason,\r\nso I was easily got the sack. Before, I must go to the hospital for the\r\ntreatment for a long time, it took around 2 hours by car from my home to the\r\nhospital, and totally it took a half of day for going to the hospital and back.\r\nThe doctors did not work on the weekend, so I must go to meet them from Monday\r\nto Friday. Early, I could explain my reason for my off day, but gradually, I\r\ncould not find any more reason and I told them I must go to the hospital for\r\nhealth check but no one believed in me.

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There is no reason, I chosenthe way to resign myself to\r\ngo to the office late or be off work without reason.

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The most wretched event was my marriage. When my girl\r\nfriend’s parents pressed us to get married, at that time I detected that I got\r\nthe sexual disease. My only way was to find the reason to defer the wedding\r\ndate. After deferring and deferringuntil Oct 2002 couldn’t they\r\nstand anymore. My girl friend’s parents and friends day by day pressed me to\r\nget married with her. My colleagues day by day say the same thing\r\nover again, even my boss. I was pressed and it made me crazy but I could not\r\nsay the true that I was infected the sexual disease. If I say the truth, my\r\nlife would be ended.

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Not only that, day by day my disease also manifested\r\nobviously. The constant pressure induced me to become dead.

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Finally, in Dec 2002, I said good bye to my girl friend; naturally,\r\nI did not tell her my disease status. After that, many people enthusiastically\r\nintroduced me many girls but I refused all. I got the sexual disease and could\r\nnot told anyone, so I should be alone all my life and suffer to be ridiculed of\r\nthe others. In my heart, I needed a girl beside me, we could talk to each\r\nother, we could share happiness or sadness, and we could help each others to\r\nover come difficulties. But it could be true? Where could I find a girl like\r\nthat?

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Buddhataught: Lewdness decreases the happy fate quickly.\r\nThis is the truth! The karma that I am suffering is the evidence for\r\nthat truth. Hope that everybody to keep off lewdness. If anyone who has\r\nviolated, they must never break that truth again!

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Translated into English by Nguyen Phuong Trinh.

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